I am not happy.but i still living,for one peple.he is the best in my life.but now living in heaven.i know he always bless me.so i dont car how unhappy i am.beacause i have my job,my house,my care,beautiful clouthes,diamonts,friends...more and more...except ture lover and family.i am 30 years old.a old woman in thd word.no dream,no feeling.so disapontive. You always feel me look like hot and happy.that is before u.in fact it is not the ture u see. Always i am alone.i am shopping myself,dinner myself,watch tv myself,ill myself,sleep myself,unhappy myself,cry myself,fee myself,pay myself...more...many many cost i must to pay.for house,for car,for living,and i.nobody can share with me.sometimes feel so tired.nobody can talk with me.sometimes feel so sad but nobody i can find to speak with.i still told to myself,i must strong,i can pass it.day after day,older than older,a woman in the night,cant sleep,at home lonely,look at the sky.very dark,very dark...look like her heart. |