To Boddah: 　　 　　Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complaind. This note should be pretty easy to understand.All the warnings from the Punk Rock 101 Courses over the years, its my first introduction to the, shall we say ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has been proven to be very true. I havent felt the excitement of listening to, as well as creating music, along with really writing something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things,for example when were backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins. It doesnt affect me in the way which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love and relish the love and admiration from the crowd,which is something I totally admire and envy. 　　 　　The fact is,I cant fool you, any of you. It simply isnt fair to you,or to me. The worst crime can think of would be to pull people off by faking it, pretending as if Im having one 100 fun. 　　 　　Sometimes I feeln as though I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on-stage. Ive tried everything within my power to appreciate it, and I do,God believe me, I do, but its not enough. I appreciate the fact that I, and we, have affected, and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of the narcisists who only appreciate things when theyre alone. Im too sensitive,I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm.But, whats sad is our child. On our last three tours, Ive had a much better appreciation of all the people Ive known personally, and as fans of our music. But I still cant get out the frustration, the guilt, and the sympathy I have for everybody. There is good in all of us, and I simply love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive unappreciative pisces Jesus man! why dont you just enjoy it? I dont know! 　　 　　I have a of a wide who sweats ambition and empadny,and a daughter who reminds me to much of what I use to be.full of love and joy, every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I cant stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable self destructive, deathrocker she become. 　　 　　I have it good, very good,and Im grateful, but since the age of seven, Ive become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Empathy only because I love and feel for people too much I guess.Thank you from the pit of my burning nauseas stomach for your letters and concern during the last years. Im too much of a neurotic moody person and I dont have the passion anymore,so remember, its better to burn out, than fade away. 　　 　　Peace, love, empathy, 　　 　　Kurt Cobain 　　 　　Frances and Courtney, 　　 　　Ill be at your altar. 　　 　　Please keep going Courtney 　　 　　for Frances 　　 　　for her life which will be so much 　　 　　happier without me. 　　 　　I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU!

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